please have a look at my chart and tell me ,what is happening to medob- 17/11/2000, Time- 9:56 Am,place- Hooghly

please have a look at my chart and tell me ,How can I be more confident,because of my awkwardness, sometimes I am facing many issues. I was never like this, I was such a confident and jolly teen.
dob- 17/11/2000, Time- 9:56 Am,place- Hooghly
I am good to everyone, and I try my best to be good to everyone, tbh sometimes I do act like a people pleaser,but I have noticed a pattern from childhood, the friends I make(female) often talk bad behind my back they even spread rumors about me, which resulted in so many disasters in my life, but I never got the chance to clear or confront them. few days back I got to know that the puppy I use to take care of, my so called friends named the grown up puppy after me and told it to me in a very casual way, then I got to know how they are also teaching other girls(I live in a hostel). This things has been going on from school years, and I never get the chance or the courage to clarify, i cry alone about or ignore it. These things have affected me a lot, and now I am very concerned to even talk to anyone.