My name Neelam
Dob 01/04/2001
Place kanpur
Time 6 am
I’m so done with life nothing is working for me my mother is sick don’t know how long she going be with us and this thought makes me cry if any thing goes wrong I will be alone and my life is already terrible at this point of life I’m extremely frustrated and I don’t even know if my mind shut down at time
When I try to study my hand shakes subconsciously i have given up because life been never kind to me and I have seen enough failure to break my spirt
Back in 2020. I was preparing for my neet exam and I was confident about my preperation but in december first my elder brother passed away and it destroyed me by every mean I am a single girl child of my parents and after that my priority was my family and their health . It took me almost 2 year to accept that loss
After that I lost all faith but I want to be financially independent so I started preparing for upsc cse but I am not able to concentrate it’s not working and I’m stuck in loop life is full of obstacles and challenges even I came to point I must be a bad peeson in past life that’s why these thing are happening
Life is crushing me by every aspect either mentally or emotionally then I started thinking that after all my effort life is getting worse that sometime i think that I should die if I am suffer like this I can’t describe my pain day by day I’m getting hopeless
Please guide me if I can clear this exam or not if yes when
Or should I try something else
Please give a look at my kundli and suggest something or predict when I am going to get my desired job .